Jackson, 2 days old. Our 6 pound 6 ounce sweetie:
One month old, finally home from the NICU:
2 months old, beginning the NAM procedure:
3 months old, NAM with nasal stints (we hated this):
4 months old, just out of surgery. What a trooper:
5 months old, recovering:
6 months old, our precious lil guy:
So here we are... the 6 month milestone.
Jackson, although it may not seem like it all the time, I love you. You are my lil companion, my "bubba luv", my son. I'm sorry if I get frustrated with you at times, whether it's because I have to put down that tube over and over again because you can't take a bottle, or that you get so wiggly you spill the entire bottle I just pumped for you, or you just won't go to sleep because you're a night owl like your Daddy. It's not your fault. None of this is your fault. I know the past 6 months haven't been easy for you. You have had to endure in the first months of life more than many have to face in a lifetime. And yet, you smile. You have a way of brightening up the worst of days, of making me laugh when I lose sight of what truly matters. Thank you, Jackson. I wouldn't change you for the world. I wouldn't want you to be any different than the endearingly sweet, smart little boy that you are. You make me a more broken, kind, patient, and compassionate person because of what we have to walk through together. I love you my baby son. You are perfect in my eyes.
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so precious. that almost made me cry. it was so nice to finally meet him in real life.
So beautiful! Happy 6 months Jackson!
this is such a beautiful post... you are such a perfect momma for jackson. i am so thankful that you and he have been blessed with one another.
hayvn had a nice time "meeting" jackson the other day...he's hopeful that as he grows (and isn't such a little runt anymore) that he and jackson will get to play together! :)
thanks for sharing halle. jackson makes me a better person too! such persistence and patience. i love that little guy!
jenn
I cried reading your post. Thank you for sharing your incredible heart. Sorry we missed seeing you and Jackson when we were up there. We love you guys and Jackson is so darn CUTE!!
Halle,
Reading your blog, dated July 7, has really shown me how narcissistic I can get. I really admire what both you and your husband continue to do to take GOOD care of Jackson. I had a brief lunch with your husband yesterday and he gave me the news about Jason. I gave Daniel a hard time for not telling me about Jason, he replied “I don’t like talking about myself.” This by the way is affirmative.
Although I have never met you I can feel the devotion and love that you have for your son. For the past three days I have spent most of my devotional time praying for Jackson and for both of you.
Halle you are doing an excellent job and it is my prayer that God will continue to pour out His love, grace, and favor upon you all…
Sena N.
What a beautiful love you have for your son!
I graduated from APU in 2003. You went there as well?
I just saw Jackson in APU Life :)
Congrats on 6 Months!!!! I am amazed at how fast children change. God is so awesome!!
When you said "it's been interesting" I had no idea. Words? uhmm...AMAZING! It seems to have been quite the adventure for all of you. Thanks for sharing with us.
Kirk
Hi there. This is so, so beautiful. You are a such a strong, brave soul, Halle. I would love to meet Jackson, and hang out with you some time if you would be up for it. I'm sure Jackson does a great job of filling up your days, and your nights from the sound of it. But, if you ever want to visit or do something fun together, just drop me a line. Lots of love,
Eva
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